Who Am I?

Over the past few months, I’ve found myself asking the same question every day: Who am I? And surprisingly, every single time, I get a different answer. I used to wonder why. Why is it that whenever I sit in silence, my mind wanders across the globe and never seems to come back? It took me a while to realize that I am not a single entity. I am a mosaic of countless souls, each with its own voice, its own purpose.

Let me tell you a story. It’s about a boy in 8th grade—not the brightest in his studies, but with a mind that never stayed still. He didn’t mind this; in fact, he loved it. His wandering thoughts took him to new places every day, exploring worlds of imagination. One evening, while playing Minecraft with his friends, he was struck by a simple yet profound question: How does this work? How could he see this vibrant game on his screen? How was he able to talk to his friends while building virtual worlds? Most importantly, how was this entire game even created?

That question sparked something inside him—a curiosity too big to ignore. It was the day he set out on a journey into the world of programming, a world where he could finally build the very things he once marveled at.

But here’s the thing: that boy—me—wasn’t just curious about technology. I’ve realized that inside me are many voices, each pulling me in a different direction. Some days, one soul steps forward and whispers, Love is everything. It tells me to cherish the people in my life, to feel deeply, and to find meaning in connection. On other days, another voice emerges, firm and determined, insisting, Work is everything. It drives me to create, to achieve, to leave a mark. Then there’s the soul that says, Study is everything, reminding me that knowledge is power and understanding the world is its own reward.

Each voice has its time, its purpose, its truth. And while they often compete for my attention, I’ve come to see them not as conflicts but as parts of a whole. Together, they make me who I am—a person constantly seeking balance, constantly learning what matters most. Maybe I don’t need to silence any of them. Maybe the journey isn’t about choosing one path but learning to walk with all of them at once.

This is one of the reasons I write these blogs: to pour my thoughts onto the screen and share them with the world. I’ve realized that I no longer care about being judged, and that’s freeing. That’s also why my writing often feels vague or jumps from one topic to another—not because I’m trying to present a polished version of myself, but because I’m on a journey to explore who I truly am. Writing is my way of unraveling the chaos within and embracing every part of it.

I’ve often had people ask me, Why aren’t you the same for everyone? It’s true—when I’m in a room with ten people, each person might leave with a completely different impression of who I am. At first, I used to wonder if this made me inconsistent, or worse, inauthentic. But over time, I’ve realized it’s not about being fake—it’s about being multifaceted. I adapt to the energy around me, not because I’m trying to please everyone, but because different sides of me resonate with different people.

Some might see the dreamer who’s always lost in thought, while others might meet the overthinker, the quiet observer, or the curious soul who asks too many questions. I’m all of these and more, and that’s okay. Maybe we’re not meant to fit into one box. Maybe being truly ourselves means embracing every version of us, even the ones that only show up in fleeting moments.

Now that I’m on my own, that spark of creativity has reignited, and my wandering mind has shown me something profound—I’m not just interested in computers. I’ve realized I hold a deep passion for so many things. I want to be a poet, a footballer, a YouTuber. The possibilities feel endless, and in embracing them, I came across a quote that resonates deeply with me: "An engineer is everything but just an engineer." It’s not about being confined to a label but about exploring the limitless facets of who I can become.

So, as I write these words, I wonder: is it possible to truly define who I am? Perhaps I am not meant to be one thing. Perhaps I am the poet in quiet moments, the dreamer on the football field, the curious mind behind the screen, and the storyteller sharing his journey with the world.

So, who am I? Maybe I’m not meant to answer that for you. Instead, I invite you to drop your own impression of who I might be. For now, I’ll leave it here—a soul with endless stories, seeking to understand the mosaic within.

And while you’re here, ask yourself: Who am I? Perhaps the answer isn’t meant to be simple. Perhaps it’s a journey, just like mine.

Today’s thought:
"Become a walking paradox: Study war but read poetry, understand science but discover art. Connect seemingly opposite thoughts and weave them into an idea. That is the only way to add depth and dimension to your character—and that is how you gain an edge in life."